Apologizing, emotions, and best friends?

I make it seem like I have more problems then I really do. I know some of you love that, but others hate. frankly, I don't care what you think of it. I'm just saying whatever I want.

Now, apologizing can only go so far. It can only repair so much, if any at all. "I'm Sorry" won't fix anything at all, although it is the thought that counts. But, I apologize to much apparently, and the word "sorry" really isn't all that special anymore.

Saying sorry can't fix a broken heart.
It can't fix broken friendships.
Saying you're sorry can help mend friendships.
Saying  sorry might brighten your day, or it can go and make you weep even more.
Saying sorry has different effects on different people, some good and some bad.

Whatever it is, always be the first to say you're sorry, because admitting that something is wrong is the first step to recovery.

Which brings me to this.
Thinking about things someone told me, to achieve balance in yourself, you have to forgive everyone for everything. You just have to admit that, yes, they/you did mess up. And when you let go of it, you feel that wave of relief.
Yea, I'm just thinking of it. I'm not ready to let go of some things. No, not at all.

I also heard that there are two main emotions: fear and love.
What do I mean? Fear can branch off into so many other emotions..
anger, sadness, cowardness and so on and so on.
And I guess you get the point with love. it leads to happiness, uncertainness and stuffs.
It makes sense, I'm just unsure whether I believe it or not.

Ugh, now this horrible subject.
Best friends.
What exactly is a best friend? Everyone has their own definition, I'm guessing.
To me, a best friend is just a title that you earn. Anyone can be your best friend. Sure, you can have the opposite tastes in everything, but there was just something that made you want to know them even more.
It's the weirdest thing.
But, a best friend is someone that can always be there for, and will tell you anything that everyone else is afraid to say. Someone that you can always trust. Someone that, no matter how mad you are at them, no matter how far you are away from them, you can never imagine not being friends with them.
I don't know, I've had best friends throughout the years.
Most of them, I don't talk to much anymore.
And although everyone looks for a best friend, that isn't my goal right now.
I'm fine without a best friend.
Why? I don't know really, I'm still thinking things over.
Maybe it's my over thinking on things that keeps me from making some friends.
Who knows...
I don't know, everything is so weird...