i've grown tired of not understanding myself. it makes no sense. i want one thing, then i want the other. when i get something i like, i throw it aside and want something else.

stop.
everything just stop.

i need to do something else. i need to write more. i need to sketch more. i need to photograph more. there is so much i need to do.

but let's not go and list the things i should do... i'm just going to sit here and think about the things i have done.
hm.
nothing happened today. i went to lunch and shopping.
that's almost all i did today.
actually, that's all i did today.

argh. whywhywhywhy am i like this?